January Daily Draw Day 1: Beginnings
What energies should I begin to embrace this year?
This whole spread hit me pretty hard to be honest. Healing from my past has been a continuous theme of mine, and although I just drew 3 cards for 1 question, these almost came out like a timeline of events that I must do.
Trust – “I accept that my inner voice will always guide me correctly.”
Trust is something that has been brought up to me recently, actually, by my partner. I’ve been in many bad relationships before him and although it has been almost 3 years now, a lot of what happened to me then still affects how I treat my partner now. That isn’t fair, and it is something I definitely need to work on this year. I trust him, I just need to show him that more. If I truly know deep down in my soul that he wouldn’t treat me the way I’ve been treated before, then why continue this? It isn’t healthy for either of us. Sadly, I’m also this way with people in general, not just my relationship. I’m often afraid that the world is out to get me, and even with my closest friends, I fear that they secretly dislike me. This year, it should be within my focus to work on trusting others’ motives.
Regret – “I know that I cannot change the past.”
Although I asked what energies I should embrace this year, I don’t think Regret is one of them. However, I do think the message this card holds is something that I need to embrace this year. I need to stop regretting things so much. I can’t change what happened in my past, plain and simple. All of the mistakes, the good events and bad- Cannot be changed whatsoever. So why do I keep thinking it can be? Why do I dwell on it so much? I don’t have the power to change it, so I must learn to let it go. My power to change my future, and begin to accept my past, lies in the present. Everything that has ever happened to me has made me who I am today. It is time to fully accept it this year. Which brings us to the next card…
Change – “I understand that nothing can grow or evolve without movement.”
With acceptance comes understanding, and with understanding comes change. Sure, there is comfort in the idea of a simple, guarded life, but I will never have the opportunity to change my life (and therefore, my relationships with others) if I don’t actively strive for the change itself. With the transformation I will undergo by learning to trust and accept my past, I will grow and evolve into something new. I must learn to stop fearing the change, and embrace it.